"Broken Curse"

I've watched you look at me.

When I see that glazed look in your eye,

I realize that what you see is yourself reflected in me.

Disdain and disappointment etched into your face

as you realize that I have not run the race;

the race that you should have run 

but instead put me in your place.

Love, nurturing, guidance and discipline;

all the things I should have been given,

instead replaced with guilt, shame, condemnation and ridicule.

How could I have disappointed you?

One generation after another abused and discarded.

Will anyone ever love this one who is broken-hearted?

Never intended to live up to your expectations.

Given a purpose and a destiny;

designed to make history.

A history for my own son

where all generational curse is gone.

And maybe one day 

when I see you looking at me,

instead of disappointment and disdain,

I will catch a glimpse of approval

from the one whose love has now become unconditional.