Friday, December 30, 2011

God Thoughts No. Forty Two

I've noticed that a lot of bloggers are posting summaries, highlights & "best of's" for 2011.
I began thinking about what I should post for the end of 2011
and all that seems right is to sum up my life
and to declare, once again,  who God is...

No matter what happens on this earth,
God is good.
No matter what trials, tribulations, tragedies or challenges befall us,
Jesus has overcome them all.

Because of these two facts,
there is Hope
we have Victory.

Over the past year,
Holy Spirit has put a new song in my heart
and it is
Praise to the King!

With this perspective,
I can look back on 2011 and smile a bittersweet smile
while looking forward to 2012
with great excitement & anticipation.

Holy Spirit says,
"Expect great things!"



Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Job, George & Me

At midnight,
I awoke, burning up and in writhing pain.
Whether it is something hormonal, something I ate,
or simply an attack from Satan,
I don't know.
But as I lay there in fetal position,
I began thinking about my life as compared to that of
Job (the Bible) and of
George Bailey (It's A Wonderful Life).
Like Job, I have lovingly, fearfully and willingly served God for as long as I can remember.
And as with Job, in many ways, my life has fallen apart.
Thankfully, unlike Job, my children remain alive and well and I still have a roof over my head.
I have, however, been stripped of many, many things
and have spent plenty of time lamenting the day of my birth.
To have been born only to end up where I am right now makes very little sense to me.
Job didn't understand why he was allowed to go through all he went through.
He was, after all, a righteous man.
In fact, God said that there was no one else on the earth like him.
Yet, God allowed Satan to test him, sift him and attempt to destroy him.
 I clearly see that the same is true in my own life.

Though Job and I have struggled, we remain faithful.
In fact, through each trial,
we gain new revelation of the LORD
and our relationship with Him is strengthened.
Like Job, I understand that God is sovereign and that He does as He wills.
It does not matter what happens on this earth;
I am His and He is mine.
Yes, His banner over me is Love.
In comparison to George Bailey, I understand what it is like to be thrust
into situations by a sense of duty and responsibility and mostly due to
circumstances beyond my control.
My life has reached a place where all odds are against me.
Though no one has (yet) come to arrest me, things are a hopeless mess.
People judge and do not (even try to) understand.
All the while, things spin out of control.

As with George, Satan attempts to destroy me.
But as I stand on the brink, I remember that Jesus said
in this world would be trial and; testing.
But He also said to not fear because He had overcome it all.
And because He is victoriuos, I am victorious.
I have yet to see this victory manifested in my life,
but I must hold onto this promise
and remember,
His banner over me is Love.

Something the Lord revealed to me this morning (as I lay writhing)
was that both Job and George's stories have happy endings.
Interestingly, God used people to restore both Job and George,
which is, indeed, a miracle!
Both men came out victorious and better off than when they had begun.
Whether my story has a happy ending or not remains to be seen.
But I have come to realize that
all that truly matters is that I remain faithful (to the end) to the One whose
Banner over me is Love.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

God Thoughts No. Forty One

In His goodness and love,
God never ceases to amaze me.
As I persist with determination to know Him more,
He is faithful to reveal Himself anew to me every day.
He is so multi-faceted that we will never know the fullness of Him
until we are with Him in heaven.
each moment with Him is a wonderful revelation of His goodness.

The past couple of weeks have been "interesting" for me.
Though I lay down each night feeling exhausted and ready for sleep,
as soon as I try to snuggle in,
my mind kicks into gear.
I toss and turn and I am wide awake.

As I toss, I pray.
With every turn, I converse with God.
Holy Spirit brings to mind
thoughts, dreams, hopes & people.
He gives me ideas, places desires in my heart & speaks to me of others' needs.

With each idea, hope & revelation,
I am infused with an overwhelming sense of expectancy.
As I pray for Him to manifest the promises which He has made to me,
I vow to go about fulfilling the desires He has placed upon my heart;
to bless those that He desires to bless.

Then it occurs to me;
He doesn't really need me to carry out His blessings
(though He delights in sharing with me the desires of His heart).

In the past week,
He has allowed me to bear witness to His goodness
 by answering my prayers for some of those He has laid upon my heart. 
Though He didn't used me to manifest those blessings in their lives,
He gave me a sneak peak into what He was already doing for them!
How exciting!
How amazing!
How humbling that He would share with me what He was planning to do
in the lives of those whom I love.

He truly is an amazing, loving Father!

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