In Memory of My Mom

For those of you who haven't heard, my mom passed away on Tuesday morning.
It was sudden, unexpected, but for her, it was peaceful and welcomed.
She longed to be with her Lord and Savior, and He has granted to her, her deepest heart's desire.
I miss her terribly. I love her immensely. And I understand completely.

When I gave birth to my own children, I thought I fully understood a mother's love; my mom's love for me.

But what I have realized upon her passing is that it goes even deeper that I previously thought.

In heaven, we understand things perfectly. Now, her love for me is perfect; more so than it could have ever been while she was on the earth.

Upon going through pictures, I realized how quickly time really does go by.

I realized how many things we forget with the passing of each day.

But mostly, I realized what a mess we make of things. So often we allow our own emotions and perceptions to effect our relationships with others.

Now that she's gone, when I look at those pictures, I see HER. I see who she was on the inside. I see her beauty, her personality, her heart and her spirit.

All I see is a wonderful woman with a heart of gold.

Life is too short to hold onto grudges. Life is too short to live with regrets. Life is too short to remain stuck in all of those awful places Satan so desires for us to remain.

My mom and I had a good relationship and I am so very thankful for that.

It wasn't perfect and we certainly didn't always agree with one another, but we were always the best of friends.

A Mother's love is an inkling of God's love. And His love is for each and every one of us. If, by some circumstance, you didn't grow up with your mom, please know that God loves you immensely. He loves you with a deep, abiding, fierce love which is almost beyond comprehension. All you have to do is accept it. He's here waiting for you now.