Jesus, My Friend

This week the Lord has been revealing to me how He has been taking me back to my childhood so that I can become the woman He has destined for me to be. When Jesus said to be as a little child and to have the faith of a child, He wasn’t speaking to the children who had gathered around Him but to the adults! We don’t have to tell children to act like children, they do it naturally! I think it’s interesting that we spend our time telling our children not to be silly when, maybe, we should be seeking to become as children!


At a very young age, my mom would tell me that Jesus loved me and that He was always beside me. I never doubted her, I believed it. In fact, I knew it! And I knew it because He walked with me and talked with me. I had a real, tangible friendship with Him. My mom loves to tell stories about how from the time I was about three years old I would “disappear” into our back yard and when she would go looking for me she would find me talking with Jesus. Or how, often times, she would hear me arguing with my little friends about how Jesus was playing with us even though they couldn’t see Him. I saw as a child and I believed as a child and Jesus was there!

I don’t know when I ceased to have that kind of fellowship with the Lord, but I know I came to a point about thirteen years ago where I wanted it back! I was going through a difficult period in my life and I knew that I wanted to get back to that place. In fact, it was the Lord Himself who revealed to me that I needed to get back to that place. And so it began. He was ever faithful to draw me in; closer and closer to Him.

Then, about six years ago, the Lord started me on a “regression”. I didn’t realize it at the time, I was simply thankful for all that He was doing in me. As I think back to the beginning of my “regression” I can’t help but chuckle at the way God works. I have never liked being the center of attention. I am a somewhat private person and am content with being a “wallflower”. However, upon beginning my “regression” the Lord chose to do much of it publicly. Jesus began showing Himself to me in the middle of Sunday morning church services. You might be thinking, “Well, that’s great! But how is that so “public”?” Well, it’s “public” because He wouldn’t just show Himself to me, but He would pour His love on me in such a way I would just “melt”. I would stand or sit there crying and crying; soaking in His love and in His presence. A few times it was so intense that people came up to me to see if I was okay. I often heard people whispering about me; assuming that I had some great sin or burden in my life and that was why I was crying so much! HA! Funny thing-assumption!

Anyway, after a period of time, the Lord began bringing back memories of my times with Him as a child. Not just memories though. He brought back sights, sounds, smells and feelings. He vividly showed me our times together, as if on a movie projector. All the while, whispering of how we were (and still are) making more memories together!

Jesus is such a loving Savior and Friend! Oh how He desires friends! He wants us not only to love Him as Lord, Savior and Master, but as Friend. Is He your friend?